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has her life turned upside down overnight
when her father is indicted for a
massive fraud that
leads to the loss of her family’s fortune. In the wake of
the scandal, Poppy moves to Paris at the behest of her
aunt, the Countess
Domel, who, unbeknownst to
Poppy, intends to find a wealthy husband for her
in order to ensure her future. Poppy, however, has her
own dreams of
finishing school and realizing her goal
of becoming an award-winning
journalist. When she
meets Henri Olin, the passionate and seductive
son of one of France’s most powerful
politicians, his political and social
Poppy to a world very different from her own. Yet,
ultimately learns that everything comes at a
price, even love. After suffering
a devastating loss,
Poppy finds herself alone and virtually penniless, and
forced to make her way back to America to piece
together the remnants of her
life in New York City.
There, she rediscovers her passion once again, only
to be confronted with yet another life choice, one that
will forever shape her
I do not know what to
say. I am an emotional wreck after
reading this book. So just a word of warning
so you are
prepared. This book is so packed with emotions. You can feel
And some are good but some are gut-wrenching.
Make you want to scream at the
book. But when an author
can make you feel this way, she is truly someone
This book is about
Poppya young woman in the late 70’s
that fall in love and goes through so many bad things. But
finding love can be
hard. And sometimes it is not all
fairy-tales. As I was taken along on this
journey with poppy
I felt so much for her.This young woman has been though
hell, but has pulled herself up and
started over on her own.
Fist her father going to jail and then falling in Love
Henri to only be left all alone with nothing after losing the one
any woman would never want to lose. She feels like
her life is finally on track
and that just maybe she can get it
back. Only to learn she may never find it. I
can not wait for
book two to find out how it all ends.
Now before I ruin
this for you I will leave off here. I hope you
enjoy this book as much as I
did. If you do like this book,
please consider leaving a review. The Authors
really like it
when you do; they value your opinions too.
It’s been a
long time since she’s interacted with anyone other than Norah, let alone a man
whom she finds attractive. She’d never thought it would happen, not because she
had consciously sworn men off, but because after Henri, then Paul, she didn’t
believe there was room in her life for anything but her pain and misery. And
even though she’s convinced those feelings will never leave her, after seeing
those eyes and hearing that voice, she’s realized that there’s certainly room
for a little excitement.
“I’m going to get some air.” Poppy walks behind the bar to grab her sweater.
The only chance she has to take a break is during the performances since Bass
doesn’t allow its employees any down time. Norah had warned Poppy, but her
desperation made her put her comfort behind money and Paul. She wedges a pipe
in the frame of the back door, steps over an overstuffed garbage bag and leans
against the alley wall. The stench of the garbage used to bother her, but not
anymore. After a while, she’s come to understand that the smell is just as much
a part of the City’s identity as the graffiti and crime. New York wouldn’t be
New York without it. And she’ll still take it over Paris any day. Paris. Poppy groans to herself. She hates when her thoughts go there.
But she’s too sober for them not to. It’s why she prefers to spend her waking
hours working. It makes her too preoccupied to wonder about Paul and how much
he’s grown and changed over the past few months. Darkness begins to find a way
inside her chest and starts to sink in. Poppy takes a long inhale, her senses
awakening to the putrid smell. At least she’s distracted again. She looks over
her left shoulder and watches as people rush up and down West 10th.
“You don’t like bossa nova?”
Poppy turns to see the serious brown eyes staring down at her. The man behind
the eyes is taller than she assumed he’d be. Something about his stance gives
him an air of self-possession, the kind that makes him seem arrogant or
guarded. But Poppy recognizes it for what it is because she’s seen it before.
It’s humility. That rare quality that enables a person to exist completely
within himself, without need for validation or attention. What she saw back at
the table was genuine, the look in his eyes made that obvious. Henri had it
too, although not to the same degree. His desperate need for his father’s
attention kept him from being that self-realized. Henri. Poppy clears her throat to give herself a second to reorient to
the present, pushing Henri’s ghost as far back in her mind as she possibly can.
“It’s not a matter of like or dislike. I think it’s fine. I just needed some
air.” Her eyes track back toward the entrance to the alley.
“Oh yes. Fresh, clean New York air,” he says facetiously.
When Poppy doesn’t respond, he continues. “Where I’m from, describing bossa
nova as ‘fine’ would be taken quite personally.”
“I didn’t realize Brazilians were so sensitive regarding their culture.” Poppy
is about to say more but remembers that she hasn’t been tipped yet.
“I wouldn’t say sensitive.” He shoves his hands into his corduroy jacket and
leans against the brick wall to mirror Poppy’s stance. “I think proud is a more
“You say potato . . . .” Poppy mumbles. As attractive as she finds the man, the
need to impress him is already wearing on her. It’s all rather futile really.
It’s not as if she’s looking for a lover, let alone a relationship. Perhaps
a flirtation, she muses. But again, it’s fairly pointless since it demands
more energy than she has, and he probably doesn’t even live in New York.
“What about a potato?”
His confused expression makes Poppy laugh out loud.
“What?” He asks, unable to keep from laughing. He knew she’d have a beautiful
laugh. He just knew by the way she smiled when she delivered his drink. If only
he’d been bold enough to touch her hand when she did. But she doesn’t seem like
the kind of person who wants to be touched, at least not without her
“Nothing,” Poppy replies, shifting her weight from one leg to the other. She
begins to scrape at the loose gravel in the wall, not caring when she chips a
He lowers his head so he can be eye level with her. Poppy figures he’s at least
five inches taller than she is, in heels. “Come on, I can’t be that ridiculous
Poppy shrugs. “How would I know, we only just met. But I think it’s cute the
way your brow goes like this.” She imitates his bemusement, wrinkling her face
to make lines between her brows and points to it.
“I don’t look like that.”
Before Poppy can reply, a noise makes her turn toward West 10th again. Just
inside the black iron gate that frames the alley, she spots a young woman who
looks to be about her age. The woman tosses back her long dark hair as she
talks to a guy whose arm is wound tightly around her waist. Poppy recognizes
the intimacy, the way every inch of their bodies touch as they speak. She
studies their unspoken language, wondering if that’s how she looked with Henri
that first night.
A peal of laughter escapes the woman as the guy lifts her hips around his and
presses her against the wall, squeezing the flesh beneath her skirt and kissing
The brown-eyed stranger follows her gaze. “I didn’t think I’d be getting two
shows tonight,” he whispers.
The low sound of his voice ignites something in Poppy’s chest that travels down
to her cunt. Desire, like everything post Henri and Paul, had seemed like a
far-off notion, until tonight that is. Something about this stranger is
awakening the kinds of feelings she believed she’d buried. Denial, Poppy
realizes, isn’t the same as burying a truth. The former makes you want to
pretend something never happened while the latter at least makes you
acknowledge it before you shove it so deep underground it can’t touch you. The
reality is that Poppy hasn’t been able to do either well. Some days Paris and
Paul seem like a faint memory, so distant that it’s as if it all happened in a
previous lifetime, while others it’s as if the truth is beating on her so hard
that it hurts to breathe. Clearly she has to find a better coping mechanism.
The stranger’s warm breath on the side of her face draws Poppy out of her
thoughts again. How easily distracted she is tonight, one thought jumping to
the next. She attempts to make them melt together until she can’t distinguish
them. It helps to lose herself in the moment, in the now which doesn’t allow
any space for the past to reside. She gazes at the enamored couple, although
enamored seems like a bit of a stretch. She didn’t love Henri that first night.
Not that it took very long to make her feel something akin to love. Sometimes,
though, she wonders if she wasn’t just picking up on his emotions and making
them her own. He’s the one who pursued her, right? He’s the one who
insisted they keep the baby, to get married in order to be a family. Where
were her decisions in any of it? She had made them, of course. Her feelings
had told her to agree, to make it alright. For whom though? For him?
To make Henri happy? To give him some sense of peace and closure
regarding his own painful childhood? How much control of her own life
had she sublimated in order to make him whole? How much had she really
loved him versus how much had she thought she loved him? Can she even
Once again, Poppy swallows back each question like a bitter pill. The answers
are a luxury she can’t afford at the moment. There’s no one to give them to her
anyway. Poppy tilts her head against the wall and focuses on the couple. She
figures there’s no need to give the couple any privacy. If they wanted that,
they could’ve chosen a different place. But they didn’t. Instead they opted for
an alley, and not a particularly dark one either. They want to be seen, to be
on display. It fascinates her to be the voyeur this time. When she was
the woman up against the wall, she had never considered what it would be like
to watch. God how she loved feeling so uninhibited. God how she misses the
freedom that comes with not caring that her actions could ever have
consequences. She loved the power she derived from that freedom, how it
impressed upon her a feeling of invincibility. She can see on the young woman’s
face that she’s experiencing the same thing. It’s the distant gaze that gives her
away as the man pushes his cock inside of her. She’s there, but she’s also deep
inside herself, taking the energy from the moment and storing it inside of her
for a later time. It’s life force she’s seeking, and it’s life force she’s
giving. If only she’d known what she would have to give in exchange for what
she took, Poppy thinks to herself.